Express Yourself Girl!

You were standing there, 10 inches away from me.

I smelled your perfume and it smells great.

You look so adorable, biting your lips like a little boy.

I can’t stop myself from smiling and admiring.

Just get away before I kiss you.

Better stop myself, before I go insane.

And decided to feel the warmth of your lips…

I wanted, to kiss you so bad.

But I know it’s wrong, 

I might hurt someone so dear to me.

But it seemed to me that you also feel something for her.

So, just get away before I kiss you.

I don’t want to do something that I know I would regret.

Stop making me fall for you.

Get away, get away, get aaway

It’s not cool for me to like my friends boyfriend.

Please just get away..

I don’t want this.. This is insane..

-babydayan ;)

      I just recently discovered that I’m crushing with a certain friend of mine. He is the type of person that surprises you with the way he thinks. There is more to him than his appearance. He has an amazing personality that made me admire him. His principles and beliefs in life amaze me. He’s very talented. He knows a lot of things about art. I like his type of music which is one of our similarities. He’s smart and very honorable. He’s serious when it comes to relationships but he also have a great sense of humor.  :) 

      I wanted to erase this feeling though, ‘cause it’s just not right. He’s my friend and I don’t want to loose him and our FRIENDSHIP. And also, I don’t want my feelings to be deepen for I have a friend that also likes him. I know, I’m a kinda bad. But I really didn’t mean to like the person that my friend also adores. As what I’ve learned today, “As cliche as it sounds, when the heart starts to beat you can’t do anything about it. You just have to follow it.” That’s according to my dear supportive friend, Kara. She’s right, it’s not my fault that I fell for him. It’s also not wrong to have a crush on your friends crush as long as she’s not in a relationship with him yet. And besides. I’m not the type of girl that flirts with their crushes. I just admire him, that’s all. Nothing more nothing less. But if there’s more, I’ll stay away. For I don’t have the courage yet to face my feelings. :( more like, I don’t have the courage yet to face my friend. :(  I hope this feeling will go away ‘cause I hate pretending to my friend that everything is the same. ‘cause frankly speaking it’s not.

     Cupid please… Stay away from me.. ‘Cause I’m such a bad liar. I don’t know how to hide my feelings for him. and my friend might notice me.. I don’t want our FRIENDSHIP to end.. :(

-I’m such a coward. But….ARRGGHHH!! this is frustrating! :l

I don’t Understand myself? :(

Once I gave my heart to someone 

I always expect it to be broken..

There’s only one person in this world that would never break it and would always care for it

It’s sad to say that….

HE’S ALSO THE VERY ONE PERSON THAT CAN NEVER HAVE IT.. :(

When I first saw you

I didn’t feel this way

To me you’re just one of my friends

But when I really got to know the real you

I felt a different sensation

Everything I once believed is now in doubt

You gave me a new reason to live. :)

Lame! you’re just so lame!

You don’t know how to make me feel special

You always demand for my attention!

But when I seek for your comfort,

You always say NO! LATER! GIVE ME A MINUTE! I’M BUSY! I’LL GET BACK TO YOU LATER!

You’re so lame! Giving me excuses that are seriously unbelievabable.

Why are you trying so hard to lie to me?

I would understand that you are through with me

All I’m asking is for you to let me go!

But then again, I can’t let you go!

I don’t know why, even though you’re so LAME!

I still LOVE YOU THIS… MUCH!

I’m willing to be called a martyr as long as I’ll have you in my life..

And maybe the reason why we’re still here..

Is because WE’RE BOTH LAME! ;)

I really don’t understand my self.

I thought I’ve move on.

But here I am again, wondering what went wrong.

Trying to convince myself that we both belong. :(

I wish someday this feeling will disappear. 

Cause it’s driving me crazy.

And it’s ripping me apart. T.T